and.....

i realized.everything i do..kinda FAIL!!

studies .. 'nuff said


work..


badminton..nothing to show for..


erm. being a good kid at home..Kinda FAIL in the beginning but have been changing..



games!! computer games..fail..


sports - basketball..couldnt make the school team cuz too NOOB
volleyball..played ONE game in MSSD. and that was it
football.people hate me for something im good at ..FAIL much!


hey..im actually good at this


oh..and having a girl..FAIL FAIL FAIL! totally..


and some people say "ben, why are you always so positive?"
im like "wth? o.o *stabs myself*"

guess.it all changed when i watched Legion..the movie eyh..
learnt alot. .. like

i go to bed tonight, and i dont wake up in the morning.would i be proud of what i've done on earth?!

and always to 'have faith!!'
..got my man Sebi to always remind me bout that.no matter how bad the situation im in.just have faith! dawg. lotsa ppl dont have faith in everything that i do.sometimes, neither do i.

and the part of having 'patience'..guess i always have it.though in situations where i seriously can burst.i learn to keep my cool.though some ppl think it's lame..
Sebi told me sometimes i gotta let it out on someone -.-"

and friends which i can have now, but cant keep in the long run
was having a convo on msn just now with on of my friend whom i've known for 3years plus.
starting we were close and all.but when work came into my life.been drifting and drifting away.seems like i dont know that person at all anymore


school's tmr.....ohhh..
school totally sucks.
people hate me there . FAIL.
i pissed my teacher for being late to school
Particularly on Mondays, Tuesdays, and Thursday
cuz i wanna skip bm.but FAIL .cant do that
oh, number of books i have left are catching up on the number of days i've got left. go figure.
that makes me go crazy

oh, im color blind too ..damnnn

im going on 19 and still in High School..FAIL!

Fine. i wont be emo that way
be happy instead (:

i stopped using the word emo cuz you said it sounded asian and something something...
emo nemo no more (:

No one else figures out this feeling
And how lonely it can get